Things I've learned

Hey everyone...so as most of you know from my last entry that I was "let go" from Banfield along with other people I have been definitely struggling and scrambling trying to get a job with obviously little success. I wanted to stay in veterinary medicine and continue learning new skills as a nurse and the veterinary field is very highly competitive even if you have a degree as a technician (which I am thinking about maybe pursuing someday but who knows)...anyways it definitely has been a MAJOR struggle and is something that I do not wish on anyone. But on a good note I was finally able to secure a job and actually did have a couple of job offers right on top of eachother and decided to take a job at a veterinary hospital that is willing to help me increase my skills as a veterinary assistant which I am extremely happy and excited about.

I was at the worst possible time in my life these past couple months and I am sorry to admit that I hurt people that I love because I was depressed and I put myself in a shell that I didn't want anyone to break through. I'm truly thankful to the Lord for helping me through this trying time. This has been definitely a humbling experience and I had to learn the hard way that it IS OKAY to swallow your pride and to admit when you need help. I finally realized God puts these things in your life to test your faith and see if you will rely on Him and ask Him to help carry some of that burden, which I admit has not been an easy task for me. I have learned that if no one understands how I feel there is one person that does and it is Jesus Christ and because of the atonement He suffered for all my heartaches, sadness, depression etc...so He knows exactly how I feel, and that you need to soften your heart and let the spirit comfort you. I have also learned to hold close the people in your life that love and care about you and not alienate them because you're in denial and prideful and ashamed. I am truly sorry for those people I did that too especially my parents who have shown nothing but support, love, concern etc... for me... especially during my times of trial. I am grateful that the Lord has blessed me in so many ways and I can only look forward to more good things to come as I continue to be faithful and trust in Him.

I know I've said this several times since I got my job offer yesterday but I want to say again thank you to everyone that has been there for me through this time and put up with my emotional garbage. I love you all and I am grateful for you love and support I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for the people that care about me.